It's Been a Long Day

Here's Addalynn calling it quits after a long day!!

Back to School

I start back to school in 3 days. I am excited but nervous. I feel ready to get this degree out of the way but lately family stress and drama is making me scared that I won't be able to focus and study as I should.

But I will put away that negativity and I WILL do well and pass. I have Math and Diseases of the Human Body this term.


Feel free to leave me any encouragement. I can sure use it.


xoxox!

Nosy!

I can't understand why people are so nosy. Life would be better for every individual if they would withdraw their nose just a little from the life of others when it doesn't concern them.

There is one thing that annoys me greatly and that is a local news source we have here in Baxley. Our regular and respected news source is The Baxley News Banner, but I'm not referring to them.

The people I refer to run a website. I think they are beyond rude. They post pictures of every accident they can get to, homes burning, police beats, and more. They post photos of accidents where people have been killed. I just find it profoundly disprespectful to the family to plaster pictures of that on the internet. The obituary for the deceased is quite enough notice without having to see the horrible scene. It's a shame that they post this and it's a shame that others enjoy looking at it. I certainly feel nothing but sadness when I see someone's house burning in photos. I can't stand to visit this website. I feel like even I am invading the privacy of others. .. Ah well.. enough said.


I guess I just needed to rant.

School starts on the third. I can't wait. I'm excited to be back in the groove and learning again. I'm half way done.

Also, it's almost tax time for us!! I can't wait to catch up and pay some things off. I wish I had enough money to help the ones in my family who are struggling, too. Soon enough.. soon enough.


Goodnight y'all.

01/20/2010 - My Preemies

Ahh. We are nearing my son's first birthday. It's a time of reflection for me. I can't believe that one year ago I gave birth to my second preemie. He was much bigger, of course, than Addalynn. He was my "hefty preemie", weighing in at 5lbs 12oz at 33w6d gestation.

Both my babies are big enough now that we don't get the questions like "Aww, how old is she? OH! She must have been a preemie. How much did she weigh?" and so forth. I was always proud to share that information because I was thankful that she came out of it healthy, but it kept the memories of the NICU fresh in my mind. I wanted out of that place for good.

I still haven't gotten out. I keep it tucked away but I can still hear the distant beeps and dings of the alarms in the NICU and the quiet "sshhhh" of oxygen flowing. I can still hear the whimpers of restless preemies and the cries of the grumpy ones during diaper changes. I can still the the nurses' faces welcoming me each day and I think more than anything I can remember the smell of the NICU. Of course, I'll never forget the sinks at the entrance that I used to wash my hands daily.

I guess I will never forget the NICU. It's something all preemie moms keep in their hearts and minds. It takes a special kind of mom to live the NICU life. We are Preemie Veterans!

I hope that soon I can do something to help other preemie moms even if it's just small gifts like the ones we received. I still cover up with a blanket I was given when Addalynn was in the NICU. Kody and Addalynn both use blankets that were given to them as well. I still have knitted hats and other gifts as well as the Christmas stocking and presents given to Addy by Santa himself after her birth. I want to give something to a preemie mom to help them get through or even just smile.

I'm Getting Excited!.. and Emotional!

I'm super excited these days. I can't believe that I'm half done with my degree in medical assisting. I can only move up from there. I want to become a registered nurse next. I'm nervous to have to study again. I haven't done school in three months! Will I pass? Eek. I have to have confidence and not allow negativity to interfere.

I'm super emotional these days as well. My baby boy, who was also a preemie for showing up at 33w6d, will turn 1 next month. It's time for me to start planning his first birthday party. It doesn't seem right. It feels like just last month I was sitting at Addalynn's first birthday party pregnant with Kody! Ahh. He's so sweet as well is Addalynn. Life as a mommy is just heaven.

My website is up and running. It's still having things added to it day by day, but I can proudly give the link out now!

www.keishalynn.com

xoxox

Keisha

Busy Busy

I'm about to find myself very busy. I have to go out to my dad's tomorrow and help clean up the house he's moving out of as well as the one he's moving into. I'd like to get my website up and going again this week and I would like to make a few pieces of jewelry to add to it. In addition, I return to school on February 3rd if all goes smoothly with the re-enrollment process. I'm going back to Kaplan for medical assisting. I'm extremely excited.

The babies are still doing well. They are happy and growing. Kody eats far more than I would think is necessary, but I let him eat until he feels like he's done. I guess I'm used to seeing Addalynn eat very little. She's a petite girl and always has been. I know that they both eat when they're hungry and that's the important thing.

I'm so happy Adam and I can give our babies everything they need and almost everything they could want. Life is great for the four of us. I'm blessed.

Welcome, 2010!

January 1st - Adam has a blowout on the way to town in the Explorer. We had to buy a new tire. I thought it was a bad start to the year.

January 8th - My dad's pathetic excuse for a wife packed up and left him with nothing with next to nothing. While she may have had valid reasons, she gave him no notice and no time to get on his feet.

So, we have had our share of negativity for this year so far, but I am still optimistic that we can all make this year the best yet. We will recover and even gain from all that's happened. I have my babies, my hunny, my mom and dad, and my BFF, Leah of 10 years.

Christmas was great. The babies saw their first snow while we were in Kentucky. Miss Addalynn turned 2 on the 22nd of December. It's hard to believe that just two years ago I was begging and praying for her to come home and to be healthy.

We came home Christmas morning and spent a great time with my mom and dad, too. I refuse to let anything or anyone take away happiness, love, and health from my hubby, kids, or any of my family.

By the way, here are a few pictures. I know I looked rough. I was tired and dreading the 12 hour drive we had ahead of us to get home.